Like a Rubber Band, We Can Snap Any Moment

Now I know, this song has been out for eons, well, 5 months on video that is, and in teenage and radio top 40's point of view, is ancient already. But I haven't paid attention to this song until like 2 weeks ago? Which rabbit hole did I fall into this time, right? 

But if anything, one lyric that stood out, actually there's a few, you'll see. Songs have long been a companion to everyone at any age, for many reasons. Just to name a few off hand, great melody, sung by our favourite singers, blah. But perhaps at this age, being young, insecure and only want to have fun, certain songs stand out for its emotion and ability to connect. At a point of our lives, or used to be. 

"I'm like a rubber band, until you pull too hard. Yeah, I may snap and I move fast"

When it comes to many things, different things, we all have a limit. Great thing is, that limit can be stretched, with the passage of time, it can get thicker. Your patience, you tolerance, through the events and people you encounter, you either become a most elastic band or one with breaks with a slight tug. 

That is why when people with short temper burst, you get annoyed, you roll your eyes. Because it does hurt, it tickles you with irritation. 

When people with great limits snap, you don't expect it. You get shocked, and you 'don't understand.' But don't you see, these people with great limits are bands so elastic, being able to stay at ease at times when everyone else is flocking around like chickens. It's people like these you think won't ever burst. And you keep on pulling. And the further you pull, the more it hurts. Take a rubber band and try snapping yourself.

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"You won't see me fall apart, cause I got an elastic heart."

Quite empowering, right? Well, at first glance, that was exactly what I thought. You won't see me fall apart. I thought it was telling the other I'll be so strong and tough, I'll never fall apart even if you hoped for that to happen. But really, what it meant was putting on a mask in daylight. Falling apart, and dying inside when the doors are closed. What's amazing is that stories like that happens right now at this very moment to everyone around us. When you meet up with that friend of yours who is always so cheerful and you know for a fact has nothing going wrong in their lives. 

And maybe you're right. But maybe, every night, their minds drift to the one or few things that cause them grave sadness. It could be an ex-lover, it could be a death of a close friend, or simply a sad news. And we die a little, even if we don't want to. 

Cause I got an elastic heart. You simply can't break something that's already broken. 

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It seems like we all have issues that we find hard to resolve, and it's even harder at this age where everything makes sense and doesn't at the same time. Wouldn't this utter sadness make everyone just want to commit suicide? I read Twitter once, that "people who kill themselves didn't want to end their lives, they wanted to end their pain."

I then wonder, how scary it had to be, to experience pain so badly. One that isn't physical or tangible. Like an entity, it sticks with you, replaying scenes that may not even exist in your head. An image so excruciating you wished you slept forever. 

But somehow or rather, we are a lucky bunch to know that at the end of the day, no matter how much pain we feel now, we'll get over it, and we live with the hope that it'll get better. 

Rain

'I know that they say that all i want is to have fun, 

and get away from rainy days'

There's something about rainy seasons that I just can't seem to get over. Like today, it almost rained all day. There's really nothing more I'd like to do but go to some coffee place and find a window seat and just stare outside and look as the rain falls. The gloominess of it has always seemed extremely calming and it helps with the sombre and slouchiness of the day, almost as if god placed a blanket over and gets everyone sleeping. Heavy rains, I just get so addicted. 

Maybe it's the pure laziness the rain gives me the high. I know, how mad right. 

Earlier on I was watching a some random Youtube video I somehow stumbled on. A talk show called 'The Talk', how direct huh. A knock-off of The View. Well, I have to be honest, I knew what that show was and just wanted to watch and criticise how bad it was. But then the issue of happiness came up. 

 'You have to take responsibility of your own happiness'

Well yes, on somedays, most days even, we would all love to agree and think that what we do is what makes us, and what makes us, makes us happy. 

I think a great portion of the time, yeah, that is true. And when you read quotes and books, you start to wonder and question why everything is so complicated, and we're so incredibly fortunate to have what we have. 

Until you snap out of it and realise, life happens. Life gives you a ton of shit that we're never going to be fully ready or can do prior preparation. Accidents, relationships, friends, situations, work, social. Everything comes in when you least expect it. 

While it may be selfish to bear the responsibility or attribute it otherwise, but really it's the people you love especially that makes what you feel, think and do what you do. People get sick, stress comes. Yes we can be as positive and happy but things happen. 

But it is true to bring ourselves back up again, but happiness is never really a one man duty. But we then start to wonder, what does true happiness mean and how long can it last?