#QuickThought

For the longest time on social media, teens who think they know better would challenge the rationale of school by mounting years of education, leveraging to a piece of paper. Work and study like dog to get a piece of paper. Sounds familiar? Well, it's no surprise. But in all honesty, I think that is just a state of mind.

I think school to be irrelevant and see nothing in it but chasing papers. But that is only you. You chose to view it that way. You choose to see no colour in it. You choose to disregard the things you have learned. Yes, there are things, too many in fact that serves little or no purpose. But if not for this mess you call school, would you have met the people you met. Would you otherwise find purpose and contemporaries?

You could be confined in your four walls and desperately trying to find purpose, and get you opinion mattered. So you see, even though you spend years chasing papers, you spend the same time building your life, and create connections and moments that you'll carry with you for a long time.

The good times, the bad times. You need them both. Without the bad times, you would never comprehend the value of good times. With the bad experiences, you'll cherish good times so much more.

Maybe I'm just reading too much into this. But as I look back in my 2.5 years in school, there's really nothing much I would change if I were to redo it. I've just learned too much to do any different.

Almost the same thing : Finding a Job & Finding Love

As internship period drew nearer, so did my stress and tension. And in the midst of writing resumes and sending cover letters, I had a thought. Is finding a job like finding love?

It may sound cynical and maybe illogical. But hear me out. When you’re finding love, you go and seek for it, like when you’re finding a job. You either chance into a notice, or know exactly where you want to go. And the cover letter you send in jobs, is like flirting when you are finding love. In a few sentences, a few paragraphs if you permit, you have to use that little time to interest and engage the other person.

If you get that attention, then we’ll talk. And when it comes to resumes and experience, it’s like the conversation. Getting to know more about each other. And when finding love, you may like a person a lot, so much in fact, and you see nothing else.

But for the employer or company, they receive tons of cover letters and resumes, and they keep their options open. To you, they might be the only person you see. But to them, in the dark or knowingly, you are just one of the options. And you’re just engaged because you stand chance, or you are a second option in case one fails?

And the interview? The date. Maybe they are interviewing a list of potential candi(dates), maybe the person you are in love with is dating are few people simultaneously. Like an interview, you don’t know who you’re competing against, but you know you’re not the only one.

And sometimes one fails, you employ the help of job finding applications and websites, like how some people turn to tinder or grindr. And the rest? Leave it up to the high heavens.

Isn’t it quite symbolic? Cynical and pathetic, that you put so much, too much sometimes of yourself into one person, to know you’re just, still an option. But still can’t shake that feeling off, hurting yourself over things are would hopefully matter.

We all want to be the person who changes the unsolvable. But sometimes, they just got to do the solving themselves. As much as we would like for it to work out, there’s just so much love can do until it stops.

Why I Believe No One Can 'Try To Be Nice'

“Character isn’t what you have, it’s who you are”

                                                                           - Yolanda Foster

I still remember, for the past four semesters, before the first day of school and mayhem. I always tell myself – “ a start of a new semester, let’s not screw this up, be nice.”

And without fail, just weeks in, I find myself to be breaking this rule, promise, oath I set up myself. Call me a black-hearted evil spinster who is just angry and sad. But truth is, as much as I want to, just the sight of some people made me go “oh hell with this nice thing.”

And then I had an epiphany, you can never deliberately ‘be nice’, because niceness comes from within, it comes from the heart. And when we attempt to be nice, or go out of our way to do so, we’re not being nice, we’re just being cordial.

To say it harshly we’re pretending to be nice, and in other words, is being fake.

But it did finally get to me, even if you can't be nice, being kind is something even the worst of mankind can do. Because kindness doesn't have to be deliberately and genuine. Because you see, kindness is genuine in itself, and it is actually something you can do. And I wondered, what took me 4 semesters, 2 years to understand that? From being mean and catty, to cunning and strategic, people in this circle are just hurt. Not mean or toxic.

And no one is truly evil, just hurt. In each of our 19 to 20 years, we go through different things, and for the most of us sad and confused teenagers, we are still getting ourselves into nonsense that we can’t really figure out why.

And in the midst of everything, it is apparent – hurting others are better than being vulnerable. And those whom we call ‘bitches’, should be renamed the ‘most hurt.’ And truth is, I’m not any better. I am, like every other person, gone through the good and bad. And sometimes, it does seem like putting someone else down is the best and fastest option to feel better. 

There are some though, whom we can’t help but to look and sigh, not because they are hurt, but so hurt beyond relief they lose their morals. And they become mean, and they enjoy being mean. The tale gets sadder when they find comfort in those whom they see themselves in. And they get very comfortable in being mean to people together. Sometimes, teamwork isn't for the better. 

Despite all the thing being said, heard and thought, I still do believe, firmly, that people are all good.

#QuickThought

With some people, you could never win. Choose to be humble and minding your own business, they'll say that you're selfish and hateful. Choose to show your things to your friends, hoping to inspire them, they'll label you a show-off. Truth is, with bitter people, the only day you're fine is when you're beneath them. So I say, overwhelm their hate with success. 

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